I’m sicky.

26 01 2010

So we finally got our internet back on. Woot Woot!.. Lots of things to talk about.

First of all I woke up feeling sick yesterday morning. And today I feel just aweful. Which really sucks because I am still subbing all week for early head start (babies). I am pretty sure I got this cold from Faith, one of them last Thursday because she was sick. I dont want to call in because I’m supposed to be the sub but I also don’t want to get the babies sick.
I also am starting school next Monday. Totally excited! I bought some new scrubs and shoes last weekend.
My dog Emmett had his first birthday this week! And we got him fixed a couple weeks ago, he weighs 73 pounds now!
Alright, I’m done.




27 12 2009

Yesterday was Christmas and it was a really good day. My mom got me some cool clothes that I really needed. Jonathan got me the ea sports active game I really wanted. It’s a workout game and it kicked my butt last night. He also got me a really nice case for my phone. I think Emmett enjoyed his Christmas as well. He got a frisbee, a new toy and some good bones and treats. That’s it for now. I’ll blog more later.

Not such a good day.

22 12 2009

So today pretty much sucked. I had to work again all day and it was crazy busy. Of course.
Another thing is today is the 21st of December which today would be our childs first birthday if we had decided to keep him/her. That was the single most hardest desicion I’ve ever made and I regret it more than anything in my entire life.
And to top the day off. I started my period which means no baby. No Christmas present for my mom from us. I am seriously so dissapointed I feel like there’s a new feeling of low in my life today. I guess there’s always next month, it just would have been better timing. Also I’m starting to freak out a little. I’ve been off my birth control since May and haven’t managed to get knocked up. If they screwed my body up I will be so devastated.

Work, Work and more Work.

21 12 2009

Today was my 8th day in a row working. I have 4 more to go then I get a day off!
This is just crazy! I have been working about 40 hours each week but I haven’t had a day off in a long time. I’m tired and need a day off. I’m not complaining because I need the money, I’m down to $26 in my bank account. Eek! What sucks though is I get paid crap. Minimum wage, and I have a Bachelors degree. So when I do get pain on Wed, it wont be for that much. The  sad thing is if I got 40 hours ever week at 7.50 an hour, I still wouldn’t be able to live on my own. Ok I would, but money would be tight.
There is talk that after the New Year the manager at Cotton Plus is going to take a lay off and they may hire me part-time. That would be great! I am still going to sub but when I start Ross next month I am going to start owing $90 a month to them for the payment plan I am doing. And since there’s no school in the summer I wouldn’t be working. Im really excited about starting Ross and starting to sub at my old high school!

Ok Im going to make some shirts to sell on Zazzle.


My Grandma & Healthcare

19 12 2009

Some thoughts…..

I think its funny how everyone can have such a strong view on the whole healthcare issue. Like REALLY strong. And yes, I do have a very strong opinion on this subject. Here’s my opinion…
First of all, Watch the movie, Sicko. I don’t care if you don’t like Michael Moore. do it.
I know we will never get to have nationwide healthcare. As in we pay higher taxes to get free healthcare. But I want to explain why I don’t think its such a bad idea. Where do I start… I believe we need to start worrying and caring about each other and not what everyone else is doing (e.i. other countries). Why are we such a selfish country. I am poor. Yet I would gladly pay money out of my check every week to get the healthcare, which most people do anyway. I would want to do this if I were wealthy or poor. And everyone would get the same treatment, whether it be Brad Pitt or some homeless person. I just feel that the way things are going right now, with everyone getting laid off or jobless, we are just putting ourselves in even more debt. I commented on my mother’s post on Facebook, where she was complaining about my grandma’s medicare not paying for her to go to a nursing home, about this issue and of course it gets people really fired up. This guy, a friend of my moms, said it was “Unconstitutional to be forced to pay for healthcare” This BLEW me away, the ignorance of this statement! Ok first of all, we are forced to pay for car insurance, are we not? How is my car more important than my body? How is it not unconstitutional to have to pay for car insurance but it is to have to buy healthcare? It just frustrates me. And saddens me. I just wished people cared for each other more.
I don’t completely consider myself a democrat or republican. But I do slide more towards the democrat side. I remember my very republican grandmother saying that something like she doesn’t think that just because you have a larger business that you should have to pay higher taxes. That statement baffles me. Of course you should have to pay higher taxes if you make more money! If I make 10,000 a year, I shouldn’t have to pay the same as someone who makes 1 million a year!!! That would be ridicules.

Another thing and why I bring this up.
My grandma isn’t doing so well and we are praying that she makes it through the holidays. She was diagnosed with lung cancer last year around Christmas time. She hasn’t smoked in over 10 years. But somehow she was already in a late stage. She did chemo treatments, but they gave her an extra strong dose and she got really sick and had to be put in a rehab facility for senior citizens. There, she did physical therapy to get her strength back so she could continue the chemo. Well she got to come home but she wasn’t strong enough for chemo anymore. My mom, and uncle were the only ones out there everyday to help her, since my grandpa is 91 and can only do so much. And now she can’t walk, and they think she make have had a small stroke because she’s not talking as much and is getting much weaker. They have decided to put her in a nursing home and my mom is getting mad because no one will take her because she only has medicare, even though she’s been putting into it all of her life. My mom is taking this very hard. It hasn’t hit me yet that soon my grandma will not be here anymore. I am not much of an emotional person, so I think my mom gets mad when she see’s that I’m not crying about it like her, yet. My grandma is very special to me! She has been like another mother, and I am the closest grandchild with her. Growing up I spent every summer with her Up North, and she’s taken me to do so many important things in my life. And it is so hard to see how much her health has declined in one year. It’s just hard for me to see her this way. And the hardest thing for me get through is that she wont be there to see me get married, and she wont be able to see my future children. One thing that comforts me though is that she is going to heaven. And she gets to see her sons, my uncles, Dennis and Jerry. She will also get to see her mom again, and everyone else that she has been missing over the years. I don’t know. I always picture heaven like where the Care Bears live. Just with people bouncing around along with the carebears. I still will be extremely sad and emotional when she passes. I may go a little crazy for a minute too. Like I said, she is a VERY special person in my life. I just wish I could keep her in my life forever. 🙂

Reason’s why I need to move out on my own.

15 12 2009

1) I hate having to compete for the bathroom. I want to be able to get up and get ready at anytime of the day and not have to worry around somebody.

2) I want to not live like a slob. It’s hard not to when there are too many dishes and not an easy way to clean them with limited cleaning supplies.

3) I wont have to transport my dog from one place to another all the time. Or worry about him chewing up things that are not mine.

4) I want to put up a Christmas tree, and holiday decorations.

This is an open blog. Meaning I will keep adding and updating it whenever I feel necessary.

2nd Day Subbing

15 12 2009

My feelings on this job are so up and down.
In the morning and night I just really hate it. I think…I hated high school because I had to be up so early. Why am I torturing myself with this again?
Then I get to Charlotte’s first hour and they are so good! Quite, respectful. Then the second hour comes along and they are ghetto and annoying! The guys are definitely guys I would not have hung out with in High School. This class I’m in now is the same way. A bunch of delinquents. Only a couple kids sit and do what they are supposed to, while the rest listen to music or play games. It’s ok though. That would have been me. I was a bad kid in high school and I would have taken any opportunity to get out of doing actual work. Oh I have to do a lot more reading today. I have to read aloud to practically every class. The book that I have to read to the majority of the classes is pretty easy. It’s some kind of ghost story. But I have to read this really boring WW2 novel to the second hour. And they are clearly unenthused about it. I feel like I’m teaching elementary school, but it’s not as fun because they aren’t interested. 
Idk, the thing that makes me mad about the kids that I’m subbing, are the future but all they talk about is fighting, drugs, sex. But I guess I am in a Burton School, I should offer to teach the advanced placement kids instead. Then I wouldn’t have to listen to this stupidness.

I am starving by the way.  I want Halo Burger!