My Grandma & Healthcare

19 12 2009

Some thoughts…..

I think its funny how everyone can have such a strong view on the whole healthcare issue. Like REALLY strong. And yes, I do have a very strong opinion on this subject. Here’s my opinion…
First of all, Watch the movie, Sicko. I don’t care if you don’t like Michael Moore. do it.
I know we will never get to have nationwide healthcare. As in we pay higher taxes to get free healthcare. But I want to explain why I don’t think its such a bad idea. Where do I start… I believe we need to start worrying and caring about each other and not what everyone else is doing (e.i. other countries). Why are we such a selfish country. I am poor. Yet I would gladly pay money out of my check every week to get the healthcare, which most people do anyway. I would want to do this if I were wealthy or poor. And everyone would get the same treatment, whether it be Brad Pitt or some homeless person. I just feel that the way things are going right now, with everyone getting laid off or jobless, we are just putting ourselves in even more debt. I commented on my mother’s post on Facebook, where she was complaining about my grandma’s medicare not paying for her to go to a nursing home, about this issue and of course it gets people really fired up. This guy, a friend of my moms, said it was “Unconstitutional to be forced to pay for healthcare” This BLEW me away, the ignorance of this statement! Ok first of all, we are forced to pay for car insurance, are we not? How is my car more important than my body? How is it not unconstitutional to have to pay for car insurance but it is to have to buy healthcare? It just frustrates me. And saddens me. I just wished people cared for each other more.
I don’t completely consider myself a democrat or republican. But I do slide more towards the democrat side. I remember my very republican grandmother saying that something like she doesn’t think that just because you have a larger business that you should have to pay higher taxes. That statement baffles me. Of course you should have to pay higher taxes if you make more money! If I make 10,000 a year, I shouldn’t have to pay the same as someone who makes 1 million a year!!! That would be ridicules.

Another thing and why I bring this up.
My grandma isn’t doing so well and we are praying that she makes it through the holidays. She was diagnosed with lung cancer last year around Christmas time. She hasn’t smoked in over 10 years. But somehow she was already in a late stage. She did chemo treatments, but they gave her an extra strong dose and she got really sick and had to be put in a rehab facility for senior citizens. There, she did physical therapy to get her strength back so she could continue the chemo. Well she got to come home but she wasn’t strong enough for chemo anymore. My mom, and uncle were the only ones out there everyday to help her, since my grandpa is 91 and can only do so much. And now she can’t walk, and they think she make have had a small stroke because she’s not talking as much and is getting much weaker. They have decided to put her in a nursing home and my mom is getting mad because no one will take her because she only has medicare, even though she’s been putting into it all of her life. My mom is taking this very hard. It hasn’t hit me yet that soon my grandma will not be here anymore. I am not much of an emotional person, so I think my mom gets mad when she see’s that I’m not crying about it like her, yet. My grandma is very special to me! She has been like another mother, and I am the closest grandchild with her. Growing up I spent every summer with her Up North, and she’s taken me to do so many important things in my life. And it is so hard to see how much her health has declined in one year. It’s just hard for me to see her this way. And the hardest thing for me get through is that she wont be there to see me get married, and she wont be able to see my future children. One thing that comforts me though is that she is going to heaven. And she gets to see her sons, my uncles, Dennis and Jerry. She will also get to see her mom again, and everyone else that she has been missing over the years. I don’t know. I always picture heaven like where the Care Bears live. Just with people bouncing around along with the carebears. I still will be extremely sad and emotional when she passes. I may go a little crazy for a minute too. Like I said, she is a VERY special person in my life. I just wish I could keep her in my life forever. ūüôā


Reason’s why I need to move out on my own.

15 12 2009

1) I hate having to compete for the bathroom. I want to be able to get up and get ready at anytime of the day and not have to worry around somebody.

2) I want to not live like a slob. It’s hard not to when there are too many dishes and not an easy way to clean them with limited cleaning supplies.

3) I wont have to transport my dog from one place to another all the time. Or worry about him chewing up things that are not mine.

4) I want to put up a Christmas tree, and holiday decorations.

This is an open blog. Meaning I will keep adding and updating it whenever I feel necessary.

2nd Day Subbing

15 12 2009

My feelings on this job are so up and down.
In the morning and night I just really hate it. I think…I hated high school because I had to be up so early. Why am I torturing myself with this again?
Then I get to Charlotte’s first hour and they are so good! Quite, respectful. Then the second hour comes along and they are ghetto and annoying! The guys are definitely¬†guys I would not have hung out with in High School. This class I’m¬†in now is the same way. A bunch of delinquents. Only a couple¬†kids sit and do what they are supposed to, while the rest listen to music or play¬†games. It’s ok¬†though. That¬†would have been me. I was a bad kid in high school¬†and¬†I would have taken any opportunity to get out of¬†doing actual¬†work. Oh I have to do a lot more reading today. I have to read aloud to practically every class. The book that I have to read to the majority of the classes is pretty easy. It’s some¬†kind of ghost story. But I have to read this really boring WW2¬†novel to the second hour. And they are clearly unenthused about it. I feel like I’m¬†teaching elementary¬†school, but it’s not as fun because they aren’t interested.¬†
Idk, the thing that makes me mad about the kids that I’m¬†subbing, are the future but all they talk about is fighting, drugs, sex. But I guess I am in a Burton School, I should offer to teach the advanced placement kids instead. Then I wouldn’t have to listen to this stupidness.

I am starving by the way.  I want Halo Burger!

Freezing & Stinky Farts

12 12 2009

I guess I don’t have a lot to write about today.
I don’t have to work which is cool. Since I work all Saturday and Sunday. Oh that reminds me I have to contact the Small Business Association about business loans.
Today I went to lunch with my mom and cousin Katrina. Then got my oil changed. And now I’m just trying to get warm. Thats why Michigan sucks! October and November was so mild. Then December comes along and it wants to be in the low 20’s. Its soooooo cold out!
Emmett is laying next to me and had the hiccups, so I scared him. It was funny because it worked, then he glared at me. Now he’s sleeping and keeps farting. And it smells really bad. Have I introduced you to Emmett? He’s my 11 month old boxer. He’s great. Like a small child. This is a picture of Emmett, and his big brother Obi! We miss Obi sooo much! I hope your having a ball in doggie heaven Obi.

Substitute Teaching

10 12 2009

So today is my first day substitute teaching. It’s ok¬†so far. Just like the high school I remember. There are still the guys that think they are so smooth with the lady’s, the girls that like it, the ones that don’t, the quiet school shooter types, and the cool nerdy kids I would have been friends with. It’s just¬†weird to be on the other end. Like I’m the bad guy or something. I’m actually sitting in a class right now but its in the computer lab so I can type on this. Today I am subbing¬†for Jonathans¬†aunt Charlotte, she teaches at Atherton High School as the special ed teacher. They aren’t really special ed like handicapped. But special ed like ADHD and slow kids. Or ones that are bad and have no where else to go. So I get here this morning and Charlotte meets me to tell me about her classes. For second hour I have to read to the kids! I hate reading out loud. I was the one of those people who¬†got really nervous in classes where Id have to read out loud, like I always thought I was gonna puke. So luckily I started reading and¬†most of them left to go to¬†skills center.¬†Then¬†there were only 3 kids left. So I read for a while longer, it¬†was some extremely¬†boring ww2¬†novel. We stopped like halfway through the class,¬†like I said, boring.¬†¬†This makes me think of when I was in high school. I try to remember how things where when we had a sub. I don’t think we were bad or didn’t listen to the subs. I just don’t want to be one of the mean ones, but I don’t want to be one of the ones that they walk all over either. Oh well, if I screw up it wont completely ruin their futures. Only about an hour left, then home to food and a nap. Yay! Then working later at Cotton Plus 5-8. Then a day off! Woo!

PS. The kid at the table next to me sprayed cologne and it smells like fur-melda-hyde

I didn’t send you a Christmas card, Charlie Brown.

8 12 2009

Lots of things have been running through my mind lately.

I’ve been working a lot at Cotton Plus. Too bad the pay sucks. And Thursday is my first subbing gig. It’s only a half a day so I get to come home take a nap then go back to work at Cotton Plus. Yay, hopefully I’ll be making some money soon.

I’ve been really thinking about starting my own business. But it’s scary.

My boyfriends friend Lee and I got into it a little bit on myspace. He’s a douche.¬† He was the one that I wrote about in one of my first blogs where his wife is basically kicking him out for another guy. Well this is how our situation got started. I’ll try to make it short… So he wrote as his status on myspace “Bored…” So I made the comment,”yea me too, it sucks I haven’t been able to find a job so I’m always bored.” Then he writes something about how his life sucks and his wife basically has him by the balls.. So I wrote him a message basically saying that I was sorry for what was happening and referring to his wife having him by the balls, that is wasn’t fair to him that she doesn’t want to be with him because he deserves to be with someone who truly loves him and wants him to be happy. Right? That makes sence, like, he shouldn’t want to be with someone who doesn’t want him back because he deserves better. I thought I was being nice.

WELL then he writes me back saying something like, You can’t seriously expect me to take advice from anyone that hasn’t been in this position? And proceeded to be a rude ass to me! What did I do? I was trying to be nice.¬† Whatever. So I wrote him back and told him what was up. I told him he doesn’t know me and can’t tell me that I have no idea how it is to end a long-term relationship! Then I proceeded to tell him about my past relationship. And I was just as rude back. So then he wrote me back saying how sorry he was and didn’t know. Yea well, what kind of person writes his best friends girlfriend a message like that? But I’m over it.

So I haven’t been in the Christmas spirit at all this year. Maybe it’s because I have no money, or because my boyfriend’s house has no decorations, or because it hasn’t snowed, but I’m having trouble and I hate it. So I heard on facebook today that there is going to be a Christmas Holiday Walk at the Cultural Center tonight.¬† I really want to go, maybe it will get me in the spirit. But I can’t. No one to go with. I cannot wait until this semester is over with for my boyfriend. I am so sick of not being able to do things because he has to do homework. And I don’t even care if I sound selfish.
Oh speaking of being selfish.. We were invited to go to Rainforest Cafe and Gameworks Sunday with my mom and her boyfriend and his kids. We never do anything with my family, so I thought it would be something fun to do and we wouldn’t even have to pay for anything. Plus with him working so much and school, we don’t get to do anything fun anymore. And Sunday would be perfect because he doesnt have to work and his hockey game is late. So I tell Jonathan about it Saturday night, and his mom says Dont you have practice on Sunday after church? That made me soooo mad?!!!?!!! Why do they have band practice right after church? Thats like the worst idea ever. Thats supposed to be the time where you spend time with your family and relax or go out to eat. Anyway it made me mad because he wouldnt tell them he had to leave early or anything. It’s just his family! Not like people who are real strict or jerks. For once, it wouldn’t kill him to come do something for me. I go to his games, stay at his house so he doesn’t have to drive a 1/2 hour to work from here, I go to church with him, go to his family events. Why?¬† Because thats what couples do. And it’s so obvious in our relationship that he doesn’t have¬† good role models or experience with it.

I love Taylor Swift!

5 12 2009

She is on Jay Leno right now and I want to be her friend. I want to sing with her and have her hair.
Ok sorry, I sound like a crazy thirteen year old.
I found a website that is really cute and everyone should go there.
Check it out. In fact, this is a really cute picture she posted today. Oh, so I started at Cotton Plus today. It is a store in the mall that puts graphics on shirts, hats, mugs, etc.¬† Notice I’m not saying screen printing because they send their work out to get screen printing and embroidery done. So working there today it made me realize that I would never send my work there! The 2 girls I worked with today dont know anything about graphics and everything they did looked like crap! And I also realized that I could do this! All they do is take what people give them, which is usually a picture or font, print it on transfer paper, and place it on the shirt and press it with a hot iron press! Thats it! I could completely do it… And do it way better. Because I would actually scan things at the appropriate dpi, and make things look good. Plus I could design cool things to put on the shirts, not just something that says “Worlds Greatest Dad” which dad would never wear anyways. So anyways… Jonathan and I could totally do that. We just need some money to get started so we can rent a mall cart or something. But I know we could do it. Jonathan has a good printer, and all you need is a bunch of shirts and an iron. Shoot, the manager I worked with today said the guy that started it just took orders all day and took them home and they could pick it up the next day. Anyways, I’m getting all worked up. Later. ūüôā